Hesitation

The sun danced wildly on my skin and the scent of chlorine wafted in the air like a cool mist. I undressed quickly and sat by the side of the pool.  i planned on jumping in like a child but something about the water mesmerized me by it's charm. So I sat on the edge with my legs swaying in the chilled water. I could feel the hard pavement against my fingers and then my mind started to spin like a wheel; concocting, dreaming, observing.
I looked into the glassy surface of the water. I could see all the way to the bottom. I wanted to jump in, but something held me back. I knew the cool of the water would only last for a moment and then i would be under the surface free to glide around. But for some reason i was afraid.
Then i realized that this is how i feel about college. I am sitting on the edge ready to dive in, but i am looking in with hesitation. I know the water is not too deep and the chill of the water will only last a moment. But I am sitting on the edge, filled with hesitation. 

Goodbyes

Today I finished Little Women. It seems like every time i find myself unexpectedly on the last page I shed a little tear. You see Little Women isn't just a book to occupy my time. it's a loving caution from Marmee and a funny blunder from Jo. A learning moment of Meg's or a sentimental word from Amy. And all those experiences have journeyed me through my first summer with a full time job Nannying. Sometimes I wished that Louisa had thrown in a chapter on Nannying. It could have easily been done, Meg could have taken up a job with a family and struggled with the same things and came home crying, much like i did. Then Marmee would have come to our rescue with a tender touch and wise words that would have been stored up in my treasure chest of words to feed and drive me. But alas, life doesn't always hand you things on a silver platter... and good books must have a last page. A last sentence. Characters must stay forever locked on the pages between the covers, and I must eventually say goodbye to Marmee's tender heart, Jo's wild spirit, Amy's sweetness, Meg's love life, Laurie's silly notions, and Beth's quiet ways of keeping things lovely. These were the characters that filled my days when I felt so alone and friendless. These were the stories that made me smile on a day filled with tears. Today I say goodbye again... but not until I pick the old warn book up from the shelf and start the adventure all over again with the first delicious words sounding something like this:

 ""Christmas won't be Christmas without presents," grumbled Jo, lying on the rug."

Until next time my dear friends. Au revoir.

Little Pooper

Today is my day off and I would like to take the time to talk about one of the little girls that I nanny for. For confidential  purposes I am going to call her Little Pooper.

Lately Little Pooper has been dropping gum out of her mouth onto "Play Equipment" causing me grief because i am the one who has to scrape it up and deal with a crying child. Then I get things like "YOU'RE MEAN!!" and "If i get another piece of gum i promise not to drop it!!". And being the "Little Sucker" that I am i fell for it once and gave her another piece to enjoy because i thought "Well, she accidentally dropped it once.. and I'm sure it wont happen again.." WRONG! Two minutes later I found her at the top of the slide looking at the piece of gum that had just fallen out of her mouth.

Some Mom's do not allow their kids to have gum but i will tell you why i do. My girls fight like Cats and Dogs, and one way to get them to stop fighting is to give them gum. So instead of filling their mouth with nasty words, it's filled with gum. See my logic? And they love to eat. They're not obese by any means but they eat quite a lot of food everyday and so if we're out and about and they're hungry i give them gum to satisfy the hunger before the next meal and/or snack.

Another thing that Little Pooper loves to do is get up from nap, and then when I catch her she quickly says "I love you Kala!!!" as if saying i love you, will cover up her naughty behavior. But i usually say something like this "I love you.. now go back to bed." haha.

I love my Little Pooper truly! She is so sweet and even when she does naughty things i can't help but love her. I guess that's how it is with most kids-despite their flaws and blunders, you can't help but see how beautiful they are both on the inside and the outside.